It has basically been 2 months since I went Gluten Free. At times it has been awesome….
….and at other things I look longingly at the bread basket….
So what do I do? How long do I do this for? I really don’t know. My eating habits have definitely improved, not amazing but better by being this way. I also never feel bloated regardless that I’m still salty and if my doc/other POTSies are right that being this way correlates with POTS getting better and I do feel better then I should just stay put. Or do I add a little back in and see what happens? Panda Cub is gluten less and says when he does eat it he feels awful. Maybe take his word for it?
With my upcoming vacation I’m worried I’m going to be a sour puss since my regular food options might not be available since I will be out at sea. Last time I checked Wegmans wasn’t on a cruise ship.
But my goal will be to continue to be g-free while on vacation regardless of how badly I want a cookie or cake.
FYI: Move Forward Monday will be posted on Sunday so look for it then unless you’re enjoying yourself lying on a beach somewhere. If so, enjoy it for me
Very believable that my scale is a neon sticky note I forgot the pic this morning but alas I am +0.6 for the week.
Yesterday’s race has got me down for the count. Probably dealing with a minor case of heat exhaustion. I feel sick to my stomach, food is so not cool and I just feel warm. I chugged 60oz of Gatorade within an hour so lets hope that helps.
I feel legit as miserable as I do after half marathons which means one thing – it’s time to train. POTS isn’t gonna allow me to get away with races not being prepared.
Because training matters (what a concept!) I am removing Tough Mudder that’s in 2 weeks from my schedule. I am not ready. If I’m not ready for 6.2 I sure as hell ain’t ready for 10-12 miles plus obstacles. My goal for 2013 is one race a month (I started in March) and 13 races total so I replaced TM with Run Amuck – 3.5 mud obstacle race put on by the Marine Corps Marathon series that’s 3 weekends from now.
Basically this blog can no longer be “Watch a girl complete races without properly training” – plus I’m tired of being at the back of the pack.
I am confident that this weeks gain is a snag in the blanket’s thread that is my weight loss journey. Not sure if that made any sense but I feel too beat to really care.
Finish Time: 1:30:04
Not my best 10k showing to date but my longest race since dealing with, well you know, the weight of the world on my shoulders last fall.
This was the first year they introduced the 10k the MCM Historic Half weekend. I have completed the half twice before, in 2010 and 2011. The 10k starts at the half way point in the half. Annoyingly, this meant I needed a shuttle bus to get to the start line…
By the time I got off the bus the race had already started! Nothing like crossing the starting line with no one in front of you. I barely felt like I was even running a race, besides getting kindly yelled at by Marines to get our butts started.
It was such a gloomy, rainy day. My heart rate was going bonkers the entire time (i.e. many walk breaks needed) and I either blame it on POTS or lack of training. I will go ahead and say both. I could have been much more prepared for this race than I was.
The race signs were pretty snazzy.
Favorite part of the course, right here.
There really isn’t much to say. My friend that was also running the 10k caught up to me (everyone was late) but I realized while running with her for the short amount of time how nice it is to run a race faster.
Would I do this race again? Absolutely – I love this race. Spectators are amazing, course is challenging but doable, race medal and shirt pretty great too. I hope to go back next year and do the half While the 10k is great, I kinda missed the first 6 miles of the course.
Are you caught up to speed or been following me since post #1? Good, lets continue.
Today marks the completion of 14 sessions but it feels like I have done 140. The process kinda drags but what can one expect when you’re going 2x a week. They did recommend 3x a week at the start but my schedule couldn’t swing that.
So what’s the update? I’m feeling awesome! A few days ago not only did I attend my strength training class at the gym but ran/walked 2.8 miles to the gym to take the class! Then, that evening I went to a Taylor Swift concert. Talk about a tiring day but I owned it like a champ. I also have been able to get up at a decent time for work so now not only am I on time but early. Who knew I could be a morning person? The fatigue is down like whoa.
To be honest, besides a blah day here and there, I am starting to feel like myself prior to POTS.
At nuerofeedback I have completed sessions beyond the playing the video game. The other day I watched a movie but the movie would pause if I wasn’t getting adequate blood flow to my forehead (measured by a temperature censor) and we all know how screwy blood flow can be for POTSies! I also have done something called Roshi, which is a meditation type feedback. I am doing a little bit of everything but Heart Math and hand warming are still apart of it all.
So how many more sessions? To be honest I am not going to be able to go for the recommended 30-40 sessions unless I want to live in a cardboard box. My budget is fried so unless a money tree grows I’m going to stop at 20, the minimum amount, the place where they begin to see change for most clients (although I noticed changes a while ago). They say its after 20 where the changes stick.
I do plan to continue with Heart Math and hand warming on my own at home, so I won’t be stopping cold turkey, just no more nureofeedback.
I am also following a gluten free diet, recommended for me by the feedback folks. How’s that going? I’m almost at 2 months and its Tough with a capital “T” and there have been so many times I wanted to cave. Do I think it’s helping? Well since I started feedback and it at the same time, who knows. I do feel less bloated no matter how much salt I have so that’s an advantage
I plan on doing 1-2 more series posts and that should carry me through the end of the nuerofeedback. If you have ANY questions, don’t be shy! Leave a comment below, email me, smoke signal, whatever.
Here’s a question – if someone gives away to you something unhealthy because they don’t want to eat it, should you then eat it?
Yes, cheese balls are gluten free, I was given them and I went off the edge on them yesterday.
So this morning with most of the jar left I threw it out. I dumped hundreds of balls in the trash can and of course recycled the container because I’m all Eco-friendly like that
This cheese ball binge could signal that I quit Weight Watchers.…so what did I do?
Well, kids, since I was too busy stuffing my face with measured servings of cheese balls I forgot to cancel my subscription before the midnight deadline. Whoops. So now I’m with it for 3 months.
Time to embrace it and give WW a big hug hello because it’s here to stay, well for 3 months that is.
Two weeks ago when I started this challenge I was 212.1. So I am down a pound. My rule was a decent amount lost by my standards and this to be honest this is not. I don’t know what to do.
On one hand this is one of my best week’s in a long time. Instead of -100 (which is definitely how the week prior was by the time it was over) I was -19. Yesterday I didn’t drive to gym to take Body Pump, I ran/walked 2.8 miles. You already know this if you follow me here or here. I even stopped myself from continuing to eat gross, stadium food at T-Swift last night.
Major improvements by far but I didn’t meet my goal. I said I wouldn’t go into the red and I did. I said I would have to lose a decent amount of weight and I didn’t.
So I have one or two options:
1. I can say, screw it, this week overall was awesome, I’m back on track, let’s keep this momentum going and forget my standards, I got my mojo back. I also recognized this week how depressed I have been and that is a major accomplishment in itself.
2. Quit Weight Watchers like I said I would
I arrived at the gym yesterday only to discover my dog decided he was hungry and ate my a huge hole in my thigh and my butt…
Since I didn’t think causal Friday can be interpreted as “Pant-less Friday”, Burlington Coat Factory is in the same shopping center as my gym and I was able to buy butt approved workout capris. What does butt approved mean? Well I like my butt and nothin bothers me more than a pair of saggy workout bottoms. Gotta show my squats gave me!
Moving forward, I received some exciting news yesterday!
This means the race is back on the calendar! But is also means that I need to train because this will be my first half marathon since Rock n Roll DC in March 2012. Yes, it has been too long.
Picking a training schedule is tricky. This isn’t my first rodeo which is a blessing and a curse. I know what kind of plans I will follow and I also know how lazy I get after a month of training. I need accountability. Anyone wanna be my personal accountability buddy and make me run every weekend for 14 weeks…..*crickets chirping*…..
I am toying with the idea of signing up for Potomac River Running’s Distance Program that begins mid June. They train full and halfers and they run on the trails that I already do. Only problem at the moment…
The training is $159 big ones and my budget is no bueno. Plus I do have a cruise coming up that I would like to enjoy a little bit.
I have some decisions to make. As my mom always says “I guess its time for beans and franks”
I think it was meant to be that I switched from Google Reader to Blog Lovin’ today, because the G-reader be saying adios come July.
I don’t really talk a lot about my mental health on here or at least nothing in great detail. I feel like no one needs to know EVERYTHING about this panda.
So during my blog spring cleaning this morning (getting rid of blogs where the writer had jumped shipped and getting new stuff) I added Hyperbole and a Half to my line up. I causally followed this on FB but never had it in my reader.
Today’s post was titled Depression Part Two. It’s lengthy but a lot of things are making sense for me now, why past 8 months have been they way they were. This post is exactly how I have been feeling. It’s amazing when something can finally vocalize everything you have been trying to say for months.
If you read the post (and I think you should, so go do it, but not until you are done with mine, mmmmk) I can tell you I am at the end of the post, have found my piece of corn, and slowly piecing my life back together. The pulmonary embolism and POTS royally messed with my head. Words cannot describe how low I have felt over the past 8 months so I’m not gonna bother trying.
So many times my friends have asked me “How are you?” and I became a robot with the response “fine.” If I gave you that response over the past 8 months, I lied. Can we still be friends? I’ll buy you froyo
What I will say is that I’m starting to feel better. It won’t be puppies and rainbows and some days will be worse than others but I feel like the happiness that has been gone is finally returning piece by piece.
I feel like NOW I am getting the restart that I craved or at least now I care enough to actually implement all the changes I said that I would do over and over and over again. For awhile, I began to question if I ever would feel the way I felt prior to all this health problem crazyness. I really questioned if I would ever care.
So readers, thanks for hanging around with me during this chapter of my life. I know I haven’t been the most inspirational weight loss story ever told during this time but I haven’t rubber stamped “The End” on this either. I’m glad for my blog. It holds me accountable and it means a lot to me when I hear “Hey, you inspire me!” Hugs for all!!
Well my new swimsuit top (VS Bombshell) arrived and with my swim cami (Lands’ End) and bottoms (Target) it gets a two thumbs up. My girls are much better taken care of here than they were in the past…
Speaking of girls, I wanna have story time, so gather around kids.
My assets are something I’ve always had, even when I was at goal weight, they didn’t get smaller. Because of my blessings I have been blessed with attention from the opposite sex most of my life. And at age 16 this was no exception…
I was at Myrtle Beach, SC with the fam and floating around on my boogie board. This kid, probably around my age was ogling me but whatever, these goodies weren’t for sale. After about 10 minutes he finally says hello followed by “You wanna release those twins??”. Cue in disgusted look by me and leaving the ocean.
Fast forward 6 hours and its nighttime and I take the elevator up to my room. I get in the elevator and low and behold, twins releaser is in it. This is when common sense should’ve slapped me to not enter the elevator but I did. After the longest elevator ever, I step off and I hear “Nice twins”.
I enter my hotel room, really pissed that I have been ogled again by Mr. Twins. My twin brother was mad too and said “let’s find him!” so off we go and low and behold he still is in the elevator (maybe he was the operator?). So we ride to level 1 and since fights in small boxes aren’t my style I wait till me and my twin brother exit. Mr. Twins clearly knew he was in trouble so he didn’t exit and was desperately pressing the close door button. Within seconds I yell “that’s him” and my brother stops the door with only inches to spare. No punches were thrown but a clear “Stay away from my sister” was voiced.
I had no more problems with Mr. Twins the rest of the trip
So in the end I gave the guy what he wanted, he told me to release the twins, right? So I brought him my TWIN. *ba-dum-tshh*
While being gluten free sucks when you visit DD
I miss you doughnuts
It doesn’t have to completely be a pain in the ass if you play it right…
Recipe Resolution has clearly fallen to the wayside the past few months but I’m back with at least one recipe a week until I gain momentum again and then hopefully more. Plus my public demands g-free recipes, as in two people asked me to do more recipes
So I made an oldie but goodie, with a few substitutions.
Gluten Free Chicken Parmesan
I made this dish before and the recipe is here.
However, instead of regular bread crumbs I used these with some seasoning mixed in…
And of course the pasta had to be swapped out.
So good and barely could tell the difference making it this way. Nom nom.