Sometimes I wonder if overhauling the way I eat and what I eat during planning wedding was a good idea.
Oh well…no better time than the present, right?
Shortly after I published my last blog post, I found myself in a very negative place food wise. I had a few binge sessions and was downright miserable. Anxiety is something I struggle with but it felt almost out of control.
I felt anything but food freedom and considered just rejoining Weight Watchers because it is what I know. But, I put on the brakes. I searched google and picked up the book Never Binge Again by Glenn Livingston. I am not finished with the book (hi, slowest reader ever here 🙋🏻♀️) but I read enough to stop myself from rejoining a plan that I know serves me no purpose.
So, what am I doing?
The definition of food freedom can truly be whatever freedom means for you. The first, and most important step, was stop asking others what they were doing. It sometimes hard to hear your own voice when you’re too busy listening to the opinions of others. Only then could I truly begin to map out my own food rules. I am still working on them and probably always will be tweaking them. The rules that will guide me every day to a diet that not only keeps the weight off, but is manageable and what I want to do. I don’t want to track food, I don’t want a food diary, so I won’t because that is the best choice for me.
What is also best for me is honesty about my diet. I do not and never have followed a 100% vegan diet. It is important I have this transparency with my readers, as some assume I am vegan but ultimately I never had that intention even from the start. 99% of my days are 100% plant based, so I understand the assumption of why people think I label myself one way or another. But I don’t. No labels here. Simply just eat more plants, less animals.
So here I am, laying it all out, to give you a better glimpse at what life looks like for me right now. I am figuring out my food rules, enjoying that veggie burger, and honestly just trying keep my head above water during these last days of wedding planning chaos. Getting on the scale less and focusing on literally anything else instead. Life is good, isn’t great, but good right now. I’ll take any small win that I can get, even if that’s just getting out of bed in the morning and putting pants on.